The Fanfiction's Corner #2 "He kissed my lips, I tasted your mouth"

I’m very excited to talk about this fanfiction, ‘cause it has just become one of my favourites of all times, I swear.

He Kissed My Lips, I Taste Your Mouth, written by MrsStylinson, is the story of Louis, who is in an abusive relationship with his boyfriend, Duncan, and Harry who’s their new neighbour, a boy always happy and positive about life.

Louis is deeply in love with Duncan, who’s a dispotic and violent man: they’ve been together for three years.

Harry comes from a rich family, that never had accepted him as a gay man and photographer: he wanted to follow his dream, so he had decided to move from his family home and live alone doing what he likes.

Louis is a tattoo artist, while Duncan has an office job, that often makes him travel away.

Louis and Harry meet each other in their palace and it begins their friendship; but Duncan doesn’t want that Louis has any male friend.

In this fic we also find Niall and Zayn, Harry’s best friends; Liam, Louis’ best friend. So yeah, there’s a lot of Ziam in it too. And they are so beautiful it hurts (I still miss Zayn). Liam is just a little ball of shyness who frequents the gym with Louis, while Zayn is a super hot model who works with Harry.

The focus on the relationship between Duncan and Louis is pretty intense: we can feel the pain and the loneliness of Louis when Duncan is away, and also when he’s not. 

Louis wants Duncan's approval so much, and he always tries to gratify him in every possible way. Obviously it's never enough.

Duncan is a really possessive person and he’s deeply jealous of Louis; he expresses his feelings for him only being rude and obsessive.

Sometimes he calls Louis “bitch” without logical reasons, simply because Louis’ always been an open and friendly person. His job also allowed him to meet so many people and knows so much about them through their tattoos’ choices.

And that’s what I was talking about when I said that their relationship is an abusive one.

Duncan always screams against Louis, offends him and doesn’t want him to have a real life. He gets angry if Louis talks with a man, or if Louis says something out of line.

The abuse sometimes becomes physical, and these scenes are so heartbreaking and painful that I can’t. He punishes Louis with sex, violating him and making him feel guilty and not worthy.

The worst thing about it all, it’s that Louis seriously believe that he loves him and that Duncan is right. He loves Duncan even if he’s the worst person of the world. He’s so desperate seeking his attention and affection that he seems to not see that Duncan doesn’t really care about him. Louis is convinced that he’s less than Duncan because Duncan has “a real job”, like he always repeats, and he doesn’t flirt with other people. Or at least it’s what Louis believes.

This is one of the many reasons why I love this ff: it deals with some topics that are very actual and close to our lives.

People often fall in love with the wrong ones and they can’t see how much it hurts to themselves. It’s hard to accept that someone that we love so much, even if they're keeping to stay with us, don’t love us back in the same, true and pure way.

It’s difficult to let go the person we’ve loved for so long. And it’s also difficult to admit that our relationship isn’t as perfect as we’d like to think.

We have to recognize when something is hurting us, and be strong enough to let go. Life won’t end there, we have to give ourselves a chance to be happy, to be really happy, without the presence of everyone else, without the people who are intoxicating us.

If the person we love treat us badly, it’s not right for us, it’s not worth our love, our devotion or tears. It’s simple as that.

We deserve someone better, always.

And this fanfiction tell us exactly this.

We deserves happiness, love and hope because we’re worth all of it.

I can see hope in Harry, the sunshine that illuminates Louis’ life.

He loves Louis in the most pure way, he just wants him to be fine and happy ‘cause he thinks Louis deserves this. He can’t stand Duncan ‘cause he knows that he's hurting Louis. He really cares about Lou, and he respects his feelings for Duncan. He loves Louis so much, therefore he accepts to be only his friend ‘cause that’s his will (at the beginning, obvsly).

Because love is also respect, and I don’t think Duncan understands it.

Duncan is the darkness, Harry’s the light.

Harry will offer comfort and protection to Louis, something that Duncan never did. And, most important, he will teach him to love himself again.

Vote: 5/5